It's only as awkward as you make it

This is my bulletin board that kelly kim and i (mostly kelly) made for my floor. hahaha. we had nothing and kim thought of the famous quote from laura lynn about awkwardness. I wonder if i will get in trouble for making this my bulletin?

Take a look at my boyfriend... what a stud.

And heather and i with the scot in a kilt.

scots fo life

And the wonderful and beautiful central park with our cousin.

more to come......

Kassie Kicks Monsters Ass

This video is the funniest thing I have ever seen. I can watch it over and over again and it does not stop being funny. Watch her facial expressions/ hand movements. Classic. You kick that monsters ass kid.

Tetrology of Fallot

East coast what.

Back from it... we had an amazing time... I just adore it out there... its ocean but not florida type ocean... its a little chilly but not crisp... it has boats and lighthouses and its that kind of ocean.
... and connecticut is more then polo games, Yale, boat shoes and sweater vests in case you are wondering.

Stratford and Bridgeport showed us a good time. Connecticut is full of these adorable quaint little towns... we were right along the shore... and just the feeling of it all. It's perfect... it was cool but the kind that flip flops are still acceptable... there are trains to take you places... and just a short ride from the NYC.

And the Scottish pride my family has is enough to shame any culture. Scots fo life. Do or die. My grandpa said they used to feel nessy on the way to school. Ha.

We watched a lot of Celtic games... learned about Jimmy Johnstone (the best celtic player)... and talked about the cou's (aka cows), the gettles (girls), and the bohys (boys).

I love the family... pictures to come.

We made it into the city for a day... shopped and acted like tourists... went to the museum of natural history... saw a crab walking the street in china town (he escaped from the fish markets)... rode the subways, made friends, ate cheesecake and had bubble tea, probably bought stolen/ illegal items... you know, all the fun stuff.

Thats all for now... stay tuned.

1 2 3 lift off

Have the world... but give me Jesus.

I'm taking off to the beautiful east coast any minute now... that is if i don't miss my plane. ha.

its vacation time...5 days... with my big sister...

ready...
set...
GO!

Starrfadu / Kleenex US Advert

This is a brilliant commercial. This is the kind of thing Christians need to be doing. Stop doing the talking... and sit and listen to people.

who's with me?

Silica Gel and bff's

This so called nice girl Kim... is not so nice...

look at the note and gift she left me at Starbucks in Akron...

Yeah right.

You can just call me Zachariah...

It's days like today that I realize there is nothing else in the world I would rather be doing then taking care of sick people...

and believe this or not... there is nothing else I would rather do then take care of sick kids.

Yes... I said kids.

And it's days like today that I realize that God has created me, in my inner most places to do this work.
Let me tell you a little bit about my day.

I got to go to the Oncology/ Hematology floor at the Children's hospital. Oncology floors in case you don't know are for cancer patients. Not just patients, they are children. Children with cancer. Cancer is devastating period... but cancer in children is more devastating then you can imagine. I was just writing an email and was saying that it hurts my heart in a way that nothing else does.

My first patient was a 12 year old boy that reminded me of Brock... which made me love him instantly. He was in such awful pain... but every time we went to move him or position him he would reach up and put his hand on our backs or elbows and tap his hand real fast just so you knew he liked you. It touched me in a deep way. We got to play xbox... baseball... I chose to be the Cubs (because of our talk Kelly Belly)... I got 2 homeruns!!!!!! I lost... but still... it was a beautiful game. The best part about this kid was that he became an uncle (yes, at 12) a few days ago and his family brought in his new nephew. Watching him hold this little life and smile like life was everything that it was meant to be for him forced me to leave the room before anyone saw me tearing.

Then I went into the other patient I had... a 4 year old... who had lots of crazy little siblings that welcomed me with hugs and kisses and embraces around the legs like they had known me for years. The patient... in his cute cute tigger scrubs wanted me to hold him... and the first thing he did was take my badge and put it on himself... and when he learned to say my name he decided that he wanted to be Ashley... and that I was to be Zachariah. Then he took my stethoscope from around my neck... put it in his ears and said "we need to listen to the hearts" and so we listened to the hearts... and after his assessment he took the stethoscope out of his ears and wrapped it around his neck. He was the nurse now... I was the patient.... and what a fine nurse he was.
My soul just cried out for these children... and the nurses told me that there is no way to not know God on a floor like that... and thats what I love. Jesus is there... Jesus is them... and in the same way at the same time I am Jesus to them. At the end of life... and in the deep illness and raw pain... God there... God is alive... and God is making himself known to the patients, the families, the nurses, and anyone else who spent 2 seconds on that floor.

The nurse told me "we walk with the angels here"... I know what she means...

Thats one place to see God alive.

its overwhelming.